super tired

tired tired tired... yup.. soOoo tired... stupid life... stupid world... stupid friends... ='( tired of treating ppl sOoo gOood but in the end hurt myself...

Just woke up and can't get back to sleep again. So, i decided to voice my unhappines in my blog since no one will be willing to lend a listen ear for me. Blog please listen to me will you? =) You know, i really get hurt when my friends ignore me. I cannot stand people to ignore me. Its feel so bad you know. The feeling of loneliness of whom will understand? The feeling of ignoring will who understand? The feeling of unfairness will whom know? AHHHH! T-T stupid stupid stupid.

Sometime i wonder why i am a human or why i was born here in Singapore? Maybe i will be living better if i live in other world or i am.. inhuman. LOLx. Maybe i will have different treatment, better off than here. Haix. Damn sad.. Damn sad.. but who will know? I am a person that does like to keep something to myself(sometime got larx) So i need someone to lend a listen ear. People will say "OKOK.. whats up?" haix.. sick of that liao lors... Saying is easier than action. I really sad about this you know blog? Ya.. i am talking to blog.. cause no one listen to me other then you ba? haha..

Erm... what i dislike people is that they only need you only when they need help. Erm, not say dislike lar.. I never hated a person.. i just feel hurt.. hai.. cause i am too soft harded to hate someone... 18 years i have not hated a single person... if i have dispute with friends, i will settle it clearly... Why hate? Cause u doesn't know you are also ignoring someone or you need help then u ask your friend, but if they need, you say u not free? Thats is why you can't hate. If you hate, u hating yourself too.. Right? make sense.. lolx..

In summary, I just wanted no one to ignore me.. cause.. i am real shatter now.. real hurt now... aint wanted to take another blow again.. later i will die of heart breaking.. and I MEAN IT! ...