i wanted to scream~!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~! weep.. haix... do nothing also have problem... do things also have.. what am i suppose to do huh? what??? I am so sick now... tired of everything... really tired of everything.. i do nothing and problem will automatically find me... you tell me what am i fucking suppose to do.. i seldom scold bad word in writting.. thats mean i am really hurt.. haix...

i am just a living creatures like you all.. can't i have the same life as you all? with no troubles... maple and maple.. why?? why all this shit things keep coming towards and entering my life? i was trying to change myself.. to become a more stronger, happier person.. What did i did wrong? i am so damn hurt now.. worse of all, i have none to pour my sorrow.. 0... why???? so tired.. really tired of living here...

still remember last last nite.. while i was bathing.. i slipped.. almost fall.. but i stop and hold on to something... (if i didnt hold on to something, my head will bang hard on the toliet bowl.. then i will have crash my head and die)

that will be accident.. a real accident.. haix... really hurt now... sick plus hurt... u all dunno how its feel... its so damn no good feeling.. really... what i am suppose to do? i was changing.. the state of changing.. but now.. i am really really tired of living... really.. serious... i have lost anything.. maybe losing faith now... thats the worse of all.. losing myself.. losing the battle of myself.. so let it be.. i don't care now.. who will care about me? i am just a fly in everybody eyes.. i am nothing.. nothing special to be seen.. no.. foolish me.. just let out and leave the world...